My best friends promises that well be best friends forever. Thats all I need.

Remind me to kill myself or something when I move to Texas.

recent photos.

I miss highschool :]
I miss these girls;
they were the epitome of fuuuunnnn!

I went to Orlando; ugh the most fun ive had in years.
That was the best getaway possible; i miss it already.

Brian; Leaves me Speechless. He is Ideal.

Cheeese :]
no one ever notices my smile. I think its the best thing about me.

My car.
My 07' mitsubishi eclipse. My parents love me.

I cant wait :]

I cant wait to be a mom;a wife.
to have a family and know that ill always have people to depend on; to love me back.
no matter what flaws i have. That will accept me as i am. My random words.
My blonde moments and the fact that i cant stand staying in the house for too long.
I know..love your life while our young; or whatever the adults say. I know being 18 doesnt last forever.
but i'm so ready; i promise.
I cant wait.

Out of it. Save me.

I don't know; how i got to this position. I'm emotional; i've lost my best friends. I've lost who i am in the process. Where do i go from here. I given so much of me; and i've realized that i have nothing left.. the people i love remind me of who i am, but i cant do it anymore. It seems like everything i do isn't okay. Im making wrong decisions left and right. I need to fall back. Who i am isn't cutting it. I've been lying to myself and i've figured it out. I cant even put my feelings out on this fucking blog. I'm so tired I'm confused. I don't know where to begin; how to bring myself back up. Maybe its all just me maybe there is something wrong with me; maybe i'm just a bad person and i don't know what's good n what isn't. i'm the one thats doing to all wrong. I feel like i'm worthless that no matter what i day i'm going to stay insignificant. I feel like the impact i wanted to make..i couldn't make. I didn't make. My self esteem is way passed low. Its over.